My son is 5 and is severely autistic and has severe learning disabilities.He is also completely non verbal .He is very challenging to look after,he won't sit still,climbs on everything,wont walk with you and runs off at every possible opportunity.he has no way of communicating his needs other than pushing me in the direction of food which is his only communication.He doesn't sleep well despite being on melatonin, every night he awakes at 3am and that's him up until next evening. He pinches and grabs skin,pulls hair (hes very sensory),constantly.he destroys my home by throwing things on the floor and pouring any liquid anywhere.Hes smears his faces on himself and anywhere he puts his hands.He eats non food items such as paper plastic dirt anything really.i am on a never ending vigilance with him and I'm exhausted, totally and utterly destroyed actually. Hes currently going through a stage of crying non stop for no reason while grabbing my hair.i dont know why hes crying and hes probably frustrated but I dont know what's wrong as he cant tell me,I try my best to guess but I dont know. Hes at a SN school but hes not made any progress. I cant believe this is my life. I never thought it would be this hard, all the time. Every single day I think about how I could end it and I'd have to take him with me as we have no one to help us and family dont care.