I'm ashamed to say that I've got very fat. I used to be slim but after a few years of secret binge eating, it's caught up with me. My thighs are huge, my bum massive and my stomach as well (not self pittying, merely just the truth!). Sadly it's stopped me enjoying life and making me anxious.
I'm in a fairly new relationship with somebody who I like but is very active and slim. He suggests fun things such as a theme park, visiting Paris for a short weekend, going to the zoo and I keep making excuses because I'm just too fat and lazy to walk around and I can't relax thinking how I must look to other people. It's also making me avoid intimacy.
I'm ashamed of how I've become and I feel embarrassed that I can't be like a normal person - I'm in my twenties so I shouldn't be embarrassed to go to a theme park incase my bum is too big for the seat.
Despite all this I still don't have the motivation to lose weight, I don't know what to do.
I'm ridiculous, aren't I? Please, talk some sense into me!