AIBU to ask you to persuade me not to hand my notice in right now and to help me formulate a better, longer term escape plan instead?

[SaageGreen]

Because I'm struggling today and I feel like I want to just do it but suspect that I would regret it quite soon

I thinks it's really brave you took the rest of the day off & tried to call the GP.

Can you do the same tomorrow?

I’m afraid not, I’m up early to travel to London for a couple of days of meetings.

Did a very brief job search last night and think that I’d probably be looking at freelance or self employment kind of work. Maybe supply teaching. Not sure.

Update

So, I was thinking about the time when I posted this thread and was surprised to find that it was exactly a year ago. The day I posted this I was having a real meltdown. It was like a panic attack. Thank you for your support on that day.

I didn't do anything straight away, but I did eventually. I studied a lot about Buddhism and happiness and ended up cutting my hours to 2 days a week with nothing else to go to. That was a couple of months ago and so far I've been very much at peace with my decision.

OP I hear what you're going through. I have been through similar. Looking back, it was the sadness of the break up that got to me, but here I am now, grateful for it, so I can share with you.
I promise you that you won't always feel like this. You will get through it.

As for your work, you do need to be honest and let them know you're not well. People understand, they care, and they don't want to make you feel worse.

Your doc should be able to listen and support you. Do you have a close friend or relative you can lean on?

I found keeping a diary very helpful. I still have it and it makes me weep to read it. It was really my self-esteem that had been eroded and neglected and I can see that now, but I couldn't then.
I see you read a lot, and you are searching for a way to be happier. I think daily contemplation is a good habit, and I also practise gratefulness - reminding myself that I do have things to be thankful for.

I'm glad you felt you could post on here.

Just realised youd updated! I'm grateful you're not in the same place!

Glad you made some positive changes