I just ran away

[ScurfnNerf]

I’m autistic. My family went out to eat. I didn’t realise the restaurant was in a busy shopping centre, up high, overlooking everything. It was too noisy, bright, and everything was swaying. So I ran.
Unfamiliar town, and I’m back in the hotel. DH is in the restaurant with the children so they are ok.
I feel so awful. How could I just run and leave them all? I haven’t panicked like this in years, never since I had kids.
DH is not being understanding. He’s not been unkind, but just said ‘up to you’ when I texted to say I’m going back to the hotel.
I don’t know why I’m posting here. Probably just a release.

I didn’t want an apology, just some reassurance. I need that by words, but he does it by acts. It’s ok.

This is really common with couples, my DH and I are the same. I like to talk about emotions, he's hopeless at it, but will make me a cuppa and look sympathetic (which can be really annoying)! He wasn't raised to talk about emotions, whereas my family discuss things to death.

OP, you and your DH sound fine, you're a good team. NT or not, we all have moments when things get too much and we need our OH's to help out. Don't overthink this incident.