To ask why you are awake?

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My 4 month old will only sleep on me. Cant find a safe way for me to sleep.
Anyone else up?

Can't breathe laying down, can't sleep sitting up.

I’m awake worrying as I went for scans this evening - that and the pain that took me to A and E at the weekend. Ovarian cancer is on the cards and I keep replaying the scan. I’ll get the results later in the week. We were due to fly out on Sunday for 5 weeks NZ/Oz. I’m just so sad - please don’t tell me it will be OK / I just know it won’t be

Hmm don’t think anyone is reading anyone else’s posts just typing their own reasons lol

Now I’ve just seen above I feel terrible.

Hope everything is okay Bourdic

Worries and thoughts. Keep getting the fear. Not sleeping sucks

to all having a shit time

Now just properly read again, didn’t have glasses on, and shouldn’t of said everything is okay. I’m so sorry, I hope you have the love and support you need in real life x

I’m a bad sleeper at best of times
At moment mainly worrying about DF in nursing care
Very stressed at work about funding, how our vulnerable clients will cope if we don’t get funding plus tight deadlines and too high work load
DP is more than usually depressed due to current employment and I’m struggling to provide support to him both financial and emotional as I have little left to give without making my own situation worse
Most nights I wake 2-3 times and always around 4am
I’m going to try and drift off to sound of history programmes on I player as I need even another hour of sleep to get through the day ahead
Hope things improve for you all

Yes Poppy I do have love and support - if I nudge DH awake now he’d make a cup of tea but I want him to sleep - he needs it. It’s hard for him on this emotional roller coaster. The time just passes so slowly in the early hours doesn’t it?

I’m so glad you have the support you need. ❤️ My mum had it and made it through, she had a full hysterectomy after she had me, she’s also had skin cancers as well. Please don’t give up hope.

Actually I’m finding the time is going so quickly, I’m panicking I should be asleep and can’t fall back. It’ll be time for littles ones next feed soon. She fed at 3...

Oh Bourdic I'm so sorry

Worrying about work (as always!)

no clock, just my mobile, got up at 5, seems reasonable

poppylizzyrose rockers aren't designed for unattended sleep. Personally I wouldn't leave my LO in one to sleep.

@SheAlreadyHadDoneHerses edsctky the same. None of it works. I've such high hopes for this consultant!

Once the day has started, there will be some distractions

I didn’t actually get to sleep just hoping I manage to last the day in work now

Dd has type 1 diabetes - blood levels all over the place at night this last week. Exhausted! 😴
Bourdic I'm so sorry to hear what your going through. I had a suspected occular cancer a while ago. The wait for wait for the results was agony. Such a difficult time. Sending love

House thank you. Sorry about dd and her levels. DH developed T1 in adulthood and as we learned all about it and how to manage it I often thought about how hard it must be for parents and their children having to constantly adjust as they grew and all the emotional and psychological issues

Eldest son is flying to Germany. He and I are both white knuckle fliers. I can’t sleep till I know he’s there safely.