AIBU To throw my career away

[HettieBettie]

DH at a school.

I was part of a team that got my last school to outstanding. I returned full time to this role after my first dd. Lived every minute so passionate.

Now working in a school in measures - went to this following maternity after second dd (as I couldn’t go back to my old job for many reasons - people/job changing/psycho boss etc). The job is hard, the kids are great, the staff are tricky. I’m not passionate about this place, yet.

I feel like before I throw my all into this role I need some advice. I loved mat leave and I loved being a ftsahm. I feel like NO ONE is getting the best me. I’m letting down my children, my husband, the children at school etc.

So do I throw away my career and take some time. Or stick with it for now? It’s been 2 months. But every Sunday anxiety kicks in and I feel weepy and sick.

Please help me, please be kind. I know I’m fortunate to have the option to take time but I’m Honestly at a loss as to what to do.

So today was actually ok. I get myself so worked up on a Sunday. Still feel unsure but:

1. In reality I’m crap at being at home - I need my brain to work. I love my job. I’m passionate about a positive education experience for all chn.
2. I will see the year out for my cv and to see how it goes for myself.
3. I’m going to be mindful and I’ve asked my husband to support me in this of not going ‘all in’ - well not too much
4. I’m asking to work from hone 1.5 days a week to get my strategic/policy/planning etc work done and a work life balance.

I’m going to see how it goes.

Thank you to you all. To hear such a variety ideas/suggestions/truths/support/reasoning etc was not only helpful in me getting ideas on what to do but also highlighted to me that actually, we are all just trying to do our best! There is no right solution to this conundrum!

I think you're right to complete the year for several reasons.

I left teaching. Not looked back. Don't miss anything, apart from the kids!
Your skills will be transferable to many other jobs. You could do tuition. if you have evening support. Or online teaching.
Teaching is just not family friendly anymore.
God the Sunday nights...