I know it’s very early days - I gave birth last week for the first time and it was horrendous. Everything that could go wrong did - some down to my body some down to the hospital where they didn’t act quick enough etc. It’s resulted in extra procedures on me, numerous tests on baby and it’s all just been horrendous. I feel like we’re slowly reaching the light at the end of the tunnel and should hopefully be discharged by the weekend but still awaiting some test results before we can be let Home. Hopefully the results are good and all is ok.
I’m not even home yet and know I’ll feel able to move forward easier once I am but I always thought I wanted more children. I genuinely feel so traumatised (even though my brain has already started to blur the memory) at the thought of giving birth again I feel like it’s massively changed my whole life plan. The thought of getting pregnant or having another baby literally terrifies me.
It is early days and I know I should give myself some time but I know in my own mind that I won’t ever feel like I want to go through that again despite thinking I wanted a big family and lots of children.
Has anyone else been through similar? Just looking for a handhold I guess.