To think this is cruel

[AliceScarlett]

I'm on my 38th cycle trying to conceive, 5th cycle of Clomid. I was enjoying having a chilled out cycle without getting my hopes up. Now period is a week late and there is no sign of it. Negative tests every morning.

I don't believe the devil so logically I know there isn't some malevolent force deliberately fucking with me, it just seems so unfair. I will start my period eventually, this is just delaying and increasing the suffering.

99% positive results on the day of the missed period, 7 days after you would expect to see even a tiny line, so it's clearly not going happen. Sick of shining a torch on another negative.

I'm aware I'm moaning in self pity, just had enough of this after 3 years. Due to start IVF in January and dreading it.

*believe in

Have you had a look at the TTC section? There's a lot of kind ladies over there that are in a simple situation to yourself that can offer support.

I don't want to get your hopes up, but for some people it does take a while for a positive test. I'm not saying that's the case here though of course

Very cruel
I wish you all the best for 2019- hopefully IVF is successful for you
X

OP I have been pregnant 4 times and each time I was 5.5 weeks pregnant before I had a positive test. They always showed as negative before that.
Really hope it could be that for you.

I've got a lot of comfort from the infertility board, they're great.

My hopes swing from up to down quite a lot. It's the uncertainty that gets me.

My cycles are always regular. Why would it be so late?

I ovulated on cd13 so its not late ovulation.

@EleanorLavish do you know why it didn't show til 5.5 weeks?

What tests are you using? I only got positive tests at 5 weeks plus when using the majority of store bought tests. First plus did give me a faint positive reading at 17dpo.

It's horrible, it really is.
Don't dread ivf , it worked for me and many others .
Look into supplements and acupuncture they really help.
Good luck xx

First Response with first morning urine. Yesterday I held a wee all afternoon and got some weird line on an ASDA £1 test but I think it was an evap. Makes no sense that the more sensitive test with morning urine would be negative if yesterdays was positive.

What weird line? It was a line though?

I’ve no idea why, just was always that way.

The squintiest line ever.

That looks positive to me

Did the line appear within ten minutes?
I would just keep testing every morning first thing with Internet cheapies.

Our bodies can be shit at times. Fingers crossed for you.

If a cheapy was positive yesterday then why were two first responses negative today?

ARGH

Yeah line came straight up.

I would say your pregnant then.

I think the Internet cheapies are more sensitive.

Ive been through this and it was hell, and I wasn't even properly TTC at the time, had a very convincing line on an IC too. in the end I went to the GP who said infections can cause your period to be late and sure enough I had thrush. I do hope you're pregnant but you're wise not to get your hopes up.

Whaaat. But they're
25m lU of sensitivity
FRER are 20.

@JudasPrudy useful info, did you have thrush symptoms?

@AliceScarlett no I didn't, the GP took a swab which showed it up, I was really surprised!

Ahh I'm sorry OP. I can understand why you are reluctant to get your hopes up. Maybe leave it a couple of days before testing again(easier said than done I know)? x

Ok. I can't justify GP appointment. Hm. Maybe I'll call the fertility clinic tomorrow.

It is cruel - it must be hell for you. I'm sorry.

You’re entirely reasonable to have a pity part. TTC can be awful if taking a long time. It’s hideous. Sending you positive hugs. Hope something lovely happens for you soon. Xx