to think im being used?

[mariahbalenciaga]

For a start I know I’m stupid before anyone says it, I lack self confidence and I’m too embarrassed to talk to anyone about this.

I think my boyfriend is using me. We haven’t been together that long and in that time he’s never shown any desire to take me anywhere, just wants to “chill” with me and have sex, he has no job and sells weed (catch I know) but never has any money, he’s borrowed about £170 off me in 2 months, £70 was for “stuff to do with me” aka paying a phone bill so he could talk to me and the £100 was to pay off borrows off his mates.

He constantly accuses me of cheating and being up to something to the point where I’ve deleted all social media. He says he loves me but I don’t think so, never shows any emotion towards me or anything positive.

I dunno what to think and if I am being used, how does someone with no self esteem grow the lady balls to leave?

So proud of you for getting rid. Today is the first day of the rest of your life

Honestly you deserve so much better. Know your worth and LTB. You're beautiful, believe in yourself.

He sounds very controlling and like hes not only using you, but taking you for granted. The fact you deleted your social medias to try to ease his paranoid accusations will only have encouraged this behavior. Not to be that person, but dump his a**.

Well done. When you feel sad, try and remember that you've done something good binning him from your life. Hopefully you'll end up with someone good and supportive in the future.

As has been said, block him from everything and go cold turkey. Be on your guard - he will be back when he's in need of money, pretending that he loves you and misses you. Don't fall for it. Put the money into a treat for yourself (a coping without the arsehole reward). Be strong, you'll be so proud of doing this when you look back in the future.