Also posted this in Childbirth but putting here for traffic. I'm pregnant and high risk and have been under consultant-led care. I'm 36 weeks now and it has always been agreed that I will deliver by c section at 39 weeks.
As the pregnancy has progressed my mental health has deteriorated, which is almost certainly due to suffering with HG throughout the pregnancy. I've had thoughts of self harming. I've had panic attacks. I am also terrified of going into spontaneous labour because of a traumatic previous birth.
I called the hospital today to get my c section date and they've got me booked for 40+1. There is, apparently, absolutely no room for movement on this. It's 'all we've got'.
My anxiety is now sky-high and I've spent the rest of the day in floods of tears. This has been an absolutely hideous pregnancy and the only thing getting me through the last few weeks has been knowing that the end is in sight.
I have a DC with ASD and I need to try and arrange care for them, which is v daunting since the likelihood of me going into spontaneous labour is much greater past 39 weeks (DC was early too). I don't have family nearby that can be on call to care for them. I'd need to arrange it in advance, which is another reason why the 39 weeks section was so important. If I do go into spontaneous labour I would have to go to hospital by myself and deliver by myself, because DH would need to be with DC. I'm terrified of this too.
I can feel my brain going into meltdown and I don't know what to do. The consultants discharged me this week after a final check and growth scan. Do I go through my midwife? I can feel myself spiralling.
AIBU to think they could at least listen to my concerns and try to help me here?