First post here so please be kind. I had a termination a few months ago, this was due to the coil being ineffective (since been removed), I was heartbroken to have to do it but I already had a baby and was struggling with PND and anxiety.
I've recently found out I'm pregnant again, this time it's my fault. My depression and anxiety got so bad after the first termination that I would book a doctors appointment to get a new form of contraception and then when the time came I would cancel it and just not feel up to going. One time I got so anxious about going that I actually vomitted, I've never been like this about going to the doctor.
So this brings me to now, I didn't end up getting the pill, I only had sex once as I felt that I was letting DP down the way I was being and that brings me to now. I have my phone consultation in a few days and I'm so scared they're going to tell me I have to keep the baby or just that they're going to make things difficult for me. Is this my anxiety speaking or am i right to feel like this? (I know what I did was stupid, please don't comment telling me that)