Background: long term clinical depressive with severe anxiety. Occasional diazepam user. I have never abused or overdosed on diazepam, or any other drug. Was stable until I recently had four miscarriages in a row, which has caused me to develop flashbacks, nightmares and for my depression to come back.
I went to my GP last week for some diazepam and was told flat out no, as I am a “risk” 
I’ve used it for nearly 10 years, about three times a year. I was instead given Zopiclone, which caused a horrible hallucination of blood running down my hands and sent me hysterical (my DP had to restrain me).
I threw the Zopiclone out and used my last few diazepam these last few days. I ran out yesterday and asked for a telephone appointment. The Dr never rings. I ring up and tell them. They say I’m still on the list. I ring at 5:30 and they say I’m still on the list.
6 I ring and it’s closed.
Now I have no way of getting my medicine and I’m going to have fucking nightmares and panic attacks when I sleep. AIBU to think this was deliberate? They just don’t want to prescribe it to me for some reason.