A couple of months ago I found a lump in my breast. My GP referred me to the breast clinic to check it out. My appointment came and I asked DP if he was coming with me. He said he can't, fair enough. I thought I was just going for tests and did not expect to get results that day.
Except I did get results that day, the consultant said it is most likely breast cancer after having an ultra sound and mammogram. The whole experience was really traumatic as it was slowly dawning on me throughout the time at the clinic that they were worried. They kept asking me if I had anyone with me and I felt very alone. In the waiting room, everyone was with someone else.
Anyway, I have recently had my first chemotherapy, DP came with me and to the oncologist appointment prior. He told me that he would never let me go to an appointment again alone.
Today I have another oncologist appointment. He came but kept saying he couldn't stay if it was really delayed again. This really upset me as he has so quickly gone back on a promise. In my eyes, somethings are more important that work. He was on his own at work so would have had to shut up shop. Not ideal but like I said, I think some things are more important. This whole experience is teaching me this.
So although he did stay with me today, of it had been delayed he would have gone, leaving me alone as too short notice to arrange a friend to come. I have arranged for a friend to come to my next two chemo' so he doesn't have to.
All of this comes from a back drop of him working 7 days straight after my diagnosis, leaving my firmed to make a rota of who will come over in the evenings as I was really distressed. And also him going to a party Boxing Day, leaving me really upset.
Just to add, prior to this I have never been needy or had a problem with him going anywhere. I have just had a rough time but am slowly coming to terms with it.