Just that really, always find New year tough, kids have been with ex for last few days (both mid and late teens) they have had an amazing time, he is a millionaire so spoils them rotten, and seemingly in no rush to come home. I feel hurt, jealous ( he is with the Secretary he had an affair with for years) sorry for myself and pathetic. I do have a lovely partner but I can't get past everything else. Someone please shake me....