I have quite a few New Years resolutions.....
1- to concentrate on my health, this means maintaining healthier eating habits and trying to deal with my anxiety- a mixture of the two have seen me have blood pressure spikes of up to 170/116 over the past few weeks. I'm very scared and feel I owe it not only to myself, but also my daughter to get this under control, I'm so scared I may not reach 30 and my child may grow up without me.
2- commit to my surgery date of 1st April to have my gastric sleeve. I am scared shitless, but the resolution is to keep to that date, as it will help with the hypertension, weight loss, and maybe I'll enjoy life much more when I'm lighter and know that my weight isn't going to kill me (god I'm a barrel of laughs tonight aren't I!)
3- to travel more.
4- to figure out a way to bring extra revenue to our family business, we aren't doing badly, but I want to pull my weight a little more.
5- be a little more forgiving of myself. I need to give myself the understanding I give to other people.
these are all quite selfish things that I intend to focus on in the new year, hopefully the next year I will be able to focus more on others. But this year it feels like I need to focus on myself or my family may not have me for much longer... this may of course just be my anxiety!
Wishing everyone a prosperous 2018!