Have re-registered to get opinions.
DS's paediatrician told us she was doing a referral to SS today as I said that ideally I would like him to be in a residential school and only come home on weekends!
Background is that DS (15) has learning difficulties and associated neurological issues and has always displayed very challenging behaviour. When he was younger it was more hyperactivity and not following instructions/having no fear, now it's complete disrespect and meltdowns if he can't do want he wants. I have 3 other DC and I am worried about the effect on my youngest of him telling me to fuck off (etc) and slamming and banging around the house. He also constantly tries to upset the youngest by saying stupid things to him.
Last week I discovered that he had been 'trolling' by posting nasty messages threatening violence to complete strangers via You Tube and he had logged into an account his older brother has and sent a nasty message to his friend pretending to be his brother.
As a result we have had a weekend from hell as all internet use has been banned. I have put up with so much shit from him over the years and I really have had enough.
As a routine appointment this morning, I told his Paed all this (in tears) and she said the only way to get him into a residential school was by putting him into care which I don't want to do. I thought she may know of a way to do it via his EHCP due to his behaviour issues.
She said she would refer to SS as obviously we need support.
I suffer from anxiety anyway and have always judged myself as a shit parent. What have I done?