Am I mad to want a second child?
DS is 10mo and has slept more than 45 min at a time only a handful of times. He is huge and cluster feeds for about 7 hours every night (or screams blue murder if I refuse). My back is killing me (pulled muscles from holding him, won't heal). I have chronic subacute mastitis. I feel like death warmed up. I am so unbelievably tired I want to die sometimes.
But DS is such an unutterably gorgeous little smushy-faced cheeky-smiled cherub and I love him to bits. And weirdly somehow I want another one.
Quite apart from the question of how I would get pregnant when I am breastfeeding this frequently (from both a fertility and a logistical point of view), am I mad to consider another ehen I am this tired?