God where do I start? I am a SAHM with two beautiful children, one DC at school and one DC at p/t nursery. I am married and have great friends and family. I live in a good area and have no financial issues so on paper I should be happy but I am not. I just can't seem to function like a normal person on a daily basis.
I wake up and feel exhausted, its like ground hog day every day. I just about get my kids out on time to school/nursery (always late due to being disorganised) and almost never have time to shower, do hair etc so feel like shit from the word go. I am very overweight also which really doesn't help either (size 24) and suffer from depression (take anti depressants). I basically spend my days eating junk food, feeling like crap and wasting my life away.
I can't even get motivated to clean my house, I do little bits here and there but its always messy and my husband moans about it on a daily basis. I think if we ever ended our marriage it would because I'm so lazy and untidy. I can never be bothered playing with my kids, I do sometimes but generally can't face it. I really don't want to be like this and would love to be tidy, organised, motivated, slim but just can't get out of this hideous rut I am stuck in. I feel like I'm doing my family a disservice thus making me hate myself even more.
I look around me and I see successful women who work AND run a home, run after their kids AND look amazing?? I wonder how the hell do they do it? I can barely get motivated to wash and dress in the morning??
Has anyone been in the same position before? Is there anyway out? I am at an all time low and really need some advice. Thanks.....