I finally found the balls strength to split from my OH a few days ago. Although I burst into tears at the thought of it all and am still not 100% confident that I can keep to this (he is begging for us to "give it another go") I know 100% that it is the right decision after everything he has put me through over the years.
So today, to cheer myself up, and congratulate myself for finally doing it I decided to go to a very posh restaurant and spend the vouchers I had been given from work ages ago on a blow out lunch.
I have sat in the sun and enjoyed lobster and champagne and haven't given two hoots to the cost as I have it covered in vouchers.
Am feeling so relived and just know that happiness without that constant burden is just around the corner 