AIBU to feel sad my parents don't want to spend time with me?

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Really stupid whinge. I'm sorry.

My parents were never hugely keen on me. My dad seemed to love me when I was little but lost interest.

At a wedding today and both bride and groom so obviously had a close, loving relationship with parents. Dad sharing funny anecdotes from the brides childhood and adolescence, I don't know. It just got to me. My dad didn't even come to my wedding and I doubt he could have told you anything about my childhood.

It's rubbish and it's silly to dwell but to a point I feel it's affected my self esteem.

Nordic that's so wise. Thank you. I do think there was internalised self loathing with my mum, she was a heavy drinker. Sadly that also killed her.

I think what I realised with Saturdays wedding was that such basic things - knowing where your daughter was (not in a stalker way! Just showing a normal interest) and buying presents. That's a big thing. dont think I had even one present past the age of 17 or so.

This is sad and you deserve better. You clearly won't get it from your dad though so try and focus on the people who can and do appreciate you as you are.

YANBU but things could still be worse if your parents were still in your lives. They could be affecting your life for the worse right now. At least you can put your energy into relationships that are healthy and good for you and cherish the ones you love

I know I guess that's all you can do really, isn't it! I think I don't dwell on it at all and then it catches me up and surprises me!