I've suffered severe PND and anxiety since my daughter was born 15 months ago.
Perinatal nurse came out weekly and then fortnightly until August and then referred me for CBT. I heard nothing so chased it in October and was told the wait was long and just to keep waiting. In November I paid privately for several sessions of supposed CBT but although the lady was very nice she didn't teach me any strategies for managing my anxiety and it was more like counselling. I stopped going after 8 sessions and £500 as it didn't seem to be belong and originally she had said I should see some improvement after 6 sessions. Chased the NHS again and didn't hear anything.
Finally went back to the GP in February and discovered I'd never been referred for CBT as it has somehow been missed. The GP referred me again and I got the questionnaire which the mental health people rang to discuss with me. They told me I had severe depression and anxiety (highest possible score on anxiety section) but that the wait was 12-18 months for any help.
They said I could be referred for online therapy via Skype through Big White Wall and that would be faster. I wasn't that keen but agreed as frankly I'm getting desperate. I was anxious through pregnancy and went to the GP twice then too but was told there was no help for antenatal depression so it's now been well over two years of feeding like this.
I had my email from BWW and it turns out I need a laptop or desktop for the online therapy. They won't do it to a mobile device. We only have iPads in this house or dh's work laptop which I can't use for this purpose. I assumed I'd be able to use my iPad.
So that's no good to me either.
I do understand how stretched the NHS is and I guess they put their money into more important stuff but I spend each day waiting for it to be over so I can go to bed. The best times of my life are when I am asleep. I'm not bothered particularly about me but I can see it is affecting both of my children negatively and I do question the point of carrying on.
Aibu to think I may as well accept this is just it now and just wait for it all to be over?