Aibu to worry about my grip on reality?

[whosaidthatnow]

I happened to mention to dh today ( not in a serious conversation - just in passing) that I feel like I have to be careful what I say to people in case I mention something that is only true in passing. So I go through phases of being one type of person then another! With my beliefs and wishes changing accordingly!

So I get convinced of things then change my mind. So I try not to say anything which I know would confuse people when I change my mind.
If that makes sense! Because I don't know what is the truth or not. So for example I never mention things to say friends or family or doctors or teachers or anyone! Until I can be 100 % sure I am not imagining it...

Dh just looked at me and said "so you don't know what's real...?" Then actually backed off a bit...

I laughed it off and made out like I was being silly. But I wasn't!

I thought lots of people felt like this - but now I am panicking I am on the verge of going crazy.?

Aibu to be lying here worrying that this isn't normal now?

OP - are you on glue

meh everyone lives in their own little world.

really is a shitty emoticon even if mean well comes across as shitty

No..... I'd maybe go and see your gp

Queen - no I actually am worried about it.

This sounds very strange - do you have a split personality?

Purple - I don't think so !

Wow you lot are supportive ... not
Op do you have anxiety ?
I would suggest a visit to your gp, to have a chat about how you are feeling

Can you try to explain a little more?

QueenVomit what the hell!?

OP, it sounds ok to me. I also live in a bit of a fantasy world. If you're really worried though, see the doctor and tell them what you say here. It sounds a tad borderline personality disorder perhaps.

I can hold several different opinions at the same time, does that sound similar? So I worry about stating my case too strongly because I may feel differently soon. Maybe an example would help us understand?

Could you give an example? I'm not sure if I understand correctly.

Of course everybody (well most people) and "filter" what they are saying and how depending on who they are speaking to. And there are multiple versions of the truths.

But I'm not sure if that's what you're referring to so if you could a bit more specific we might be able to offer better advise and opinions.

I have Borderline Personality Disorder and part of that is having very changeable beliefs. Like, one minute I can believe someone is the best thing since sliced bread and then next they are out to get me. But even minor things like I like romantic comedies more than sci fi can change several times a day.

A sheep - I did after my last child was born. I took flouxitene she is 15 months now but this way predates that.

It's quite hard to think if an example that doesn't identify me to anyone who knows me but things like I decide I want to do one thing (a course for example) do it a couple of months get totally obsessed then all of a sudden go the complete opposite way.

Or I get convicted of thing which are while not totally false I have totally misinterpreted or exaggerated.

Would you mind giving us some examples OP?

whosaidthatnow You are allowed to change your mind about things. You are also allowed to be wrong. You don't have to worry about confusing other people.
Your GP can arrange for you to have a chat with a counsellor if this is worrying you.

Sorry X post. The sudden enthusiasms/obsessions that then fizzle out remind me a lot of my friend who has bipolar before she was diagnosed.

I think you should chat to your GP

A more specific example would be I got totally convinced that dh was abusive. He isn't - we did have problems but It was temporary and o just thank god I didn't tell anyone in real life but I was so close. It would have seriously wrecked things for no reason.

Barbarian I don't feel particularly happy or sad I don't think but today I was so excited about a "new thing" I just wandered around and only just kept on top of the day but tonight I just feel down and miserable. I don't mention this to anyone because I am afraid they would react like my dh does and think I am crazy!

Do you start to believe it yourself or do you know it's not true but get hooked on people's reactions of shock/ concern?

No bunty I believe it myself I don't tell anyone so never have reactions if you see what I mean

So big highs and lows in a short period of time? Isn' that a symptom of bi polar disorder? (I categorically am not trying to diagnose from my armchair btw but it might be worth talking to your GP)

I think a chat with your doctor sounds a good idea. I expect you could give more details to a GP than you feel able to here.

I don't totally understand what you mean tbh.

You say you spoke about it to your husband and he seemed taken aback, which suggests in day to day life you are coming across as normal for want of a better word.
If it worries you then have a chat with someone.

It's only looking back that I realise it wasn't rational.

About 6 years ago now I seriously believed that I would break my neck if I moved it too quickly. Obviously now o know that's crazy but then ... I didn't.

I'm not quite sure I follow what you mean, but you are clearly worried enough about it to ask here and to not discuss things with doctors, teachers, friends, because if you're you're feeling. So I think this does warrant a discussion with your gp, especially given that you've had MH issues before (which I have too, btw, not judging).

You've just sort of said in a post above that you can get very high then quite low in the same day and that might be something to share with your doctor too - not trying to Internet diagnose, just that I don't think you're being unreasonable to go and talk to a professional about it.