Sorry this is long.
My DP and I are planning our wedding at the moment and I have some lovely plans. I'm enjoying looking at Pinterest and imagining what I could do.
My main problem is that I am absolutely friendless. This makes me sad sometimes but I mainly suck it up and get on with things.
I can't imagine how utterly embarrassing it is going to be getting married with nobody to invite.
The loss of friends started when I had a bit of a mental health breakdown. I had been distancing myself from people for a while and then started having a massive anxiety disorder which I still suffer from, albeit nowhere near as extreme. I lost some very close family members and just generally closed off. This has obviously left me with no friends, no social life and not a very close family.
I find it very hard to meet new people as I work from home, have animals I deal with after work and then find I have very little time to do much else. The anxiety also makes it really hard to get out new places as I feel I can't go too far from the car or anywhere too busy, even thinking about walking round Tesco is a struggle (I am working through this and under a therapists care)
Getting to My aibu, my DP thinks we should just have a ceremony just me him and parent/s because it would be too difficult to find people to attend the wedding and anyone we could ask would probably think it strange we are asking them, and I believe he is worried about how I will feel with the rejection.
But I really want a wedding and am so worried I will look back and wish I could've had a 'normal' wedding day.
I'm not sure what the answer is and just feel terribly sad about it all. I think I am probably being UN and need to just accept that it will be me and OH in a registry office then back to feed the animals, but I just wish for more really.