Re: Fat shaming.
I told my comeuppance story up thread but I think this needs to be straightened out:
Being a fat adult is hard, being a fat kid is unlivable. Trust me, I've done both.
When you're an adult the most you get is snide, sideways comments in the street or a wrinkled nose from someone walking past.. as a kid it's SO much more brutal and you're much less able to deal with that kind of input from strangers, let alone your friends.
I was bullied from the age of 7 to the age of 18. It wasn't a "now and again" type of bullying, I was known as "pig" and "pork" from primary school all the way until I left college. There was a group of year 11 girls when I was in year 7 who had a daily game of "push the pig" where they'd be passing me in the corridor and shove me as hard as they could. Extra points if I cracked my head on the wall or fell over and showed my enormous arse to everyone. Another group of girls used to put their phones under the bathroom door while I was on the toilet and take photos of me. These would then be shown to anyone and everyone. This happened about twice a month for 4 years.
Thankfully and by a combination of chance, will power and sheer bloody defiance I managed not to end up a complete shell of myself, but I still get anxiety in dense crowds due to push the pig, can't use public toilets and feel violently sick at the prospect of seeing any of my bullies ever again. I stalk all of them relentlessly on facebook to try and avoid being anywhere they might be because most of them are still local.
I'm a 25 year old woman now. The scars of bullying run very, very deep.
So, do I take some delight in the thought that a couple of those girls have now become the size I was when they made my life hell? Fuck yes and I'm not sorry. They had no reason other than my weight to bully me, so that's what the picked on and clearly found my weight so utterly disgusting that they had to make an example of me. I hope they find themselves disgusting now. I hope to God they despise themselves as much as they made me despise myself and I truly, truly hope with all my heart that they are as ugly on the outside now as they were on the inside back then.
I'm not sorry.