feel like a shit mum

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I just can't seem to do anything right at the moment all they bloody do is argue and even if I try to do something nice they just bicker and moan. I feel so wound up even if they are being good I'm waiting for it all to kick off again. Sometimes I just think they would be better off without me. I see all these other families all happy and calm. When the kids do something bad they are all "oh darling don't do that" insert happy floaty tone and I can't seem to be like that. They just drive me crazy. Don't get me wrong I love them i but just never seem to get anything right.

When dp takes them out they always seem to have a great time (i work 3 nights a week so sleeping) but when I'm around it never goes that way. I have no patience at all. My life just seems to be working, cleaning and breaking up fights. How do the rest of you do it?

Um well Tuesday I get up at 7.30am do the school run usually have a driving lesson 11.30-1.30 then have lunch pick up the kids spend the eve with them before work then go to bed 7.30-8 the next day (so awake about 2hours. Then sleep till 2.30 chuck some clothes on and go pick them up. Do homework,spend time with them make dinner have a shower get dressed for work then say hi/bye to dp and head out again repeat the next day so on the two days I sleep I get about 7 hours in the holidays I get about 3

If I'm lucky and dp has a day off on wed,thurs or Fri I get a bit more sleep

I think my biggest problem is that first day when I'm awake 24 hours

It's also the cumulative effect of doing that week in, week out.

Could you drop down to 2 nights? I know you'd get paid less, but it's much less recovery time than 3.

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