to stick my middle finger up at the world today?

[ChinaSorrows]

I woke up with horrendous body gripping period pain. I was supremely bloated and then fluctuant too. Toe curlingly painful.

I got up (my first mistake)

DH is away. I'm on half term. I went to the hairdresser feeling grumpy as sin but smiled and loved them.

Got home and decided to make bread.

I HAVE NO YEAST!!!

And then I flooded.

AIBU to open a bottle of wine and a bar or chocolate, put my pjs back on and give up. And go back to bed.

Yeah fuck it. Today wasn't meant to be. Pop on Breaking Bad and kick back.

I've had a shite day so far. I may crack by 5pm, and end up on the sofa crying into my home crocheted blankie.

I just want to get this last bit of work finished so I can step away and it's just not happening. Only one and a half more A4 pages to go. Pah.

I've finished breaking bad. (LOVED IT) any other recommendations?

Planning and admin can feck off until tomorrow can't it?

Also a shit day - I think DP has decided he doesn't want to be with me and we can't make it work, sobbed so much my face hurts

Prison Break.

Oh sweetheart. holyfuck that's horrible. Have you talked to him? Sat down and had a conversation?

DH's friend and wife had a baby recently. I'm irrationally jealous. We can't afford to. We want to but we can't afford to start trying.
I also hate that the baby is a "princess"
I was trying to shop for a new baby present today after the hairdressers and had to leave the shops as the fuscia frilly glitzy tat that they would like makes me stabby.

I need to go shopping when I'm feeling less angry.

Holy Do you have a good network of friends? Are you okay? Do you want to talk?

and for OhHolyFuck.
and for OP.

Prison break sucked lemons once they broke out of prison!!!

Third time lucky iguana? Please?!

OhHolyfuck
China

China, yes you can afford a baby.

Ermmmm...

Orange is the new Black
Good Wife
Nashville

oh and yes tell the world to FUCK the FUCK off

I'm in that pre-bleed, dragging pain from my belly button (if I could find it under the bloat) through to my back, bowels in serious flux situation.

And I'm having to be nice to OH 'cause I took the face off him yesterday for suggesting I looked tired and should have a lie down while he made dinner, that bastard!!!!!

I have a strong feeling that I'm going to be worse tomorrow and I have to go to work again! (am there now)

So go to bed for me;
Eat chocolate for me;
Drink (lots of) wine for me.

Thanks in advance

Yep, definitely good reason to stick the middle finger up today. Hot bubble bath, wine, chocolate and Mad Men. Hope you feel better soon x

Write off the day completely as one to forget.

I normally do with this day in particularly as it is a significant ex's birthday. We are not longer in real contact, just FB friends but with a large group of mutual friends that I have backed away from over the years as it was too difficult to see him.

Completely over him and happy with my life but I did not need Facebook sending me multiple notifications telling me to wish him happy birthday, his new girlfriend's gushingly sickening birthday message appearing in my timeline, plus Timehop showing me photos from previous years of us together.

I also have a uni deadline this week.

On the plus side, I have a 9 week old sleeping kitten who is lying on my chest and keeps stroking my face.

Yabu to try make homemade bread and not order a pizza takeout instead

I've had the afternoon catching up with Grey's Anatomy, Scandal, Blindspot and The Blacklist whilst typing up uni notes.

Recommend anyone of those!

Also on half term

Went out too late last night and have done nothing productive today. I'm lying on(not in, crucial difference) bed watching crap until DP comes home and gives me a hug. Might make tinned macaroni cheese.

Don't like the world today. I hate my job, I'm feeling chubby, I probably smell :-)

Yes Orange is the New Black. Not as good as breaking bad or prison break though

Watched all of OITNB
and Prisonbreak
And Good Wife
DH thinks mad men is pretty awesome.

Maybe I'll try that whilst he's away.
On the iPad
From the bath
With chocolate and wine.

We really can't afford a baby right now. I'm self employed. I need a teacher or two in my employ so I could take mat leave from my business. Finding the right people is proving insanely hard.
We also have a flat. And nowhere to put a baby and the associated accessories. DH and I want to have a house. We're only going to get poorer. We need a house first. I need another year of earnings evidence to get a mortgage on it.