We haven't been on holiday for three years due to finances. Hey ho, lots of people in the same boat. So this year i was determined. Having looked at the costs of school holiday holidays we decided the best option was to buy a tent. Initially not cheap - have spent £££ on the tent and stuff for camping. Have been away for a weekend, we all LOVED it.
Now between my job, which is erratic hours and Dp being self employed i have managed a window of opportunity in a couple of weeks time. Yay - exciting!
But no!
My mother doesn't like the idea of camping, tried everything to dissuade me from getting a tent, didnt think i would etc. I was concerned that DD wouldnt like it but thoguht it was worth a punt, DD loved it. Its all good.
Heres the thing
My mum is not in the best of health (a long term condition) and is old etc. Her dog has just being diagnosed with a terminal illness - i don't know if he will deteriorate quickly or not.
So today she comes round "now look, are you going away" "i hope so, DD needs a holiday and so do we" "oh ok, well then i am going to have to ask my neighbour to help me then, if i get sick, you know how i can take bad, and if anything happens to the dog" 
FFS - I am not a totally selfish twat. I would be back like a shot if anything were to happen to her or the dog, or i wouldnt go if the dog looked like he was going to need pts when i was away, i just wouldn't.
So WIBU just to say "well yes, that sounds like a good idea, DD needs a holiday, she hasn't been away for three years, has no friends from school and quite frankly i am running out of ways to entertain her at home".
Now there will be an element of her being worried abotu being on her own if there is an issue with the dog, the thought has crossed my mind but the dog is ok for now. I don't anticipate a sudden decline. If my mum gets sick, well then thats another issue, no one would go away leaving an ill relative or they would come home. This is partly due to the fact that she really doesn't like the idea of camping - thinks DD will get stolen from our tent. Yeah right, our tent with my brick shit house of a DP and two dogs that would raise the devil if anyone came to the tent of a night. Oh and the fact that we are going to be camping on an organised site, bla bla bla. The biggest factor is that her sister is going to be over from australia and that she hates her sister and is pissed because he SIL is putting her sister up. I do happen to know that this will be at the time we are away (but it is genuinesly the only time i can go).
So i am actually thinking about lying about going away and tell her we couldnt book anything and tell her at the last minute. That way she wont be able to put a spanner in the works. IE - stop taking her medication, she has done this before, so she gets sick and i have to stay.
I paid more than i really could afford for the bloody tent, scrubbed dirty fecking floors and toilets at 5am to scrape the money together to buy it and its sitting in my front room unused.
My anxiety has rocketed as i am now convinced we wont get to go away AGAIN! :(
There is part of me that thinks i am the selfish one here.