My boyfriend of almost a year has embarked on a new fitness/healthy eating regime. He is ever so slightly overweight and although it doesn't bother me at all I support the fact that he would like to slim down a bit.
The problem is, he has downloaded this app on his phone that tracks his calories in/out, what he'd have to do to burn more off etc.
I am a recovering anorexic. I haven't been ill for nearly five years now, and although my weight is probably at the lower end of 'normal' for my height it took a long time to get here and for the most part, I have a good relationship towards food.
I'm starting to really find it quite challenging the way my boyfriend is constantly talking about calories. I already know the calorie content of absolutely everything and he remarked that it was 'cool' that I could reel off this information on demand. He stayed over at mine at the weekend and I offered him a (grilled, lean meat) bacon sandwich. He started going on about how much fat and calories that would entail. I wasn't comfortable eating one after that, and felt a bit self conscious for the rest of the day with what I was putting in my mouth.
I know for me that thinking about calories and weight is a slippery slope before all the old feelings come back again . I don't weigh myself for example as I start to obsess about the numbers quite quickly.
My boyfriend knows I spent a lot of time being treated for an eating disorder. After an entire day of him calorie counting (his and mine) I did say can we not talk about it anymore although I really do support him as I don't want to go down that road again. He told me I was being selfish and really unsupportive.
So am I? Am I being totally precious? Would really appreciate some perspective.