My NDN called round earlier to ask me to keep an eye on her house while they're away on hols, she also brought a toy that she had made for my DD as an Easter present/thank you for looking after the house. Very kind.
Anyway, she has launched into religious monologues in the past when we've been alone, spouting Gospel at me, so I know she is a Christian, believes the bible etc. I'm not a believer so I always just maintained a polite "smile and nod" respectful stance and hoped she would change the subject even though I found it a bit unnerving. Anyway tonight she started talking about how the bible is gospel and how we are all sinners and Jesus died for our sins etc, I said "...is what you believe yes, I however do not". She then said "oh no, not what I believe, it is GOSPEL, it is fact, it's in the bible". I said "Ok but for me I feel the bible is just hearsay evidence" etc and explained I am an agnostic/atheist and can we please just agree to disagree and leave it there. I probably shouldn't have got into a discussion about it but I am quite an open-minded person and was happy to hear her out and then tell her I'm sorry but I just don't believe it. I'm just cynical of how she/Christians claim that all bad that is done in the world is done by Satan and all the good is done by God. I said it's very convenient. I wasn't being obnoxious or inflammatory, just telling her where I stand, but she keeps lecturing and lecturing me with her spiel. She told me you're either a sheep or a goat, and you don't want to follow the idiot goats, you need to be one of God's sheep.
The cheap shot was this, she said: "Well if this little one (pointing at my DD who was clawing at her for a cuddle) got knocked down and killed on that road out there tomorrow, it wouldn't matter then, because you're not a believer". I can't remember the exact words now. I said "I would think its a pretty cruel God to take my precious daughter away from me". She then backed down and said my DCs will have a place in heaven anyway because they are innocents in God's eyes and will rise again with God and the believers but I will be damned and be separated from my children because I have not accepted God into my life. She was getting quite heated by the end and was in my face, pointing etc, it was getting to the point where I was going to have to ask her leave.
I found the whole thing very upsetting and was shaking after she left, as I felt very victimised. My DH works away and I am home alone with a 4 month old and a 22 month old, I'm too shattered to know what day it is let alone have the answers for a theological debate :-)
I cried about it after she left, foolishly perhaps, maybe the bit about my DD dying touched a nerve, or maybe someone telling you you're hell-bound is just upsetting in itself. The whole thing was so awkward I'm dreading facing her again! I feel like I don't want to accept any of her cards/gifts for my DCs in future because she has undone all of her kindness by being so aggressive about her religious views, I don't want to encourage her into our lives.
AIBU to feel upset about her coming into my home and trying to force her religious beliefs down my throat and convert me, especially while I'm alone here and vulnerable?