To ask "What have you done today to make you feel proud?"

[Salmotrutta]

I drew a line in the sand today.

I can't give any details but I'm secretly hugging myself.

I went out last night! I have a couple of physical, but fluctuating (and invisible) disabilities, as well as depression and social anxiety. Coupled with the fact that today is the (22nd) anniversary of my mum's death and my DH is away for the weekend (he's an Adult Instructor with the Army Cadets and they're so tight on numbers at the moment that if he'd cancelled then some kids wouldn't have been able to go), I really didn't want to be on my own, so my lovely BFF arranged for me to go to a charity fundraiser with her and her DF's friend's last night.

Well yesterday I was all "mopey on the sofa" and threatening a headache but I showered and dressed and went out anyway - and I had a lovely time!

Today I am at BFF's house and we are about to go out for brunch and then watch the rugby later (and tomorrow we are tasting her wedding food menu)

Good on you em and well done!

Enjoy the rugby!

I apologised to my teenage ds.

I was already angry, rushed and frustrated for a reason that was nothing to do with him, but when he came over all clever-dick with me I totally lost it with him.

I'm not proud of that

But when I saw that I was driving him to tears I realised that I had gone too far, and TBH had taken my anger out on him. He did not deserve that, even though his behaviour had been completely inappropriate. So I swallowed what I had been going to say, and instead apologised for hurting his feelings and asked if I could give him a hug. To my astonishment he did not stamp off in anger, but said "yes" and came to me for the tightest, longest hug. By the end of which I was also in tears.

We calmed down, even though nothing was resolved. Maybe nothing could be resolved. But maybe ds feels a bit more loved and respected as a result of me backing down.

So I'm proud that I managed to stop my unhelpful temper tantrum and give my ds what he really needed from me.

Managed to be a half way decent parent to my DS, making train tracks, having cuddles, making nice meals, whilst having a tortuous wait for a surgical management of miscarriage on Monday.

Ran 5km and got a PB despite being out very late last night and drinking a bazillion glasses of champagne.

Volunteering to go litter picking with local community group this morning.

Northern

Oh Northern I'm so sorry :( hope the next few days are kind to you.

Today I've managed to go to the library and the shops and do a load of housework despite being in major pain, having no cocodamol and not allowed ibuprofen. Thats today's achievement.

Well today I am proud because.... I sorted out some of the junk in the garage, did two tip runs and made a bit of room in there.

Realised I was holding onto stuff that was holding me back.

Absolutely nothing. I broke someone's confidence yesterday and I feel utterly, utterly wretched so I'm spending most of today trying hard not to think about what I may have done and praying to god that they never find out.

I'm having new carpet laid throughout the house later this month. The carpet fitters would have taken away the very good and expensive old carpet (been there for 40 years) but I thought about Freecycle. I've been inundated with applicants. Someone came round today to look at it and will take some of it. The rest will be offered to the second on the list of applicants.

It would have been such a waste for the carpet to go to Landfill (or whatever the carpet fitters do with it for disposal) so I'm pleased that someone will have use of it.

drove me and DD to the craft fair at the NEC

Well done to those managing through pain and/or disability, trying to do anything in those circumstances is a major achievement I know.
Redgoat, that sounds very upsetting for you, it sounds like you made a tough decision for the right reasons.