About five years ago I started making myself sick when I felt like I had eaten too much. This only really happened about once or twice a week at first but over the years it's just gotten worse.
I will eat a lot of food in one go and and will then make myself throw up. I have never cut food out or starved myself or used laxatives or anything like that. How often I do this varies and it can be several times a week to not doing at all for a few weeks until I start again.
I know it's bad for me and it's an unhealthy habit but it's like I can't stop.
I think it's a problem but I'm not sure I would call it an eating disorder. For starters I don't look sick or unhealthy. I am not skinny at all either. I look fine. People who know me would have no idea that I do this as I look healthy. When you see articles on eating disorders all the pictures always show people who are very clearly unhealthy, very skinny and ill looking. I don't look like that at all.
So I don't know how I could have an eating disorder in that case. I just know what I do isn't normal and that's why I haven't told anyone
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