Rarely has a thread made me more angry.
Imagine these statements:
'You know what ticks me off? SN children. Why should my neurotypical children be inconvenienced with all these SEN children in their class! Taking the teacher's attention. Taking up resources. They should all be rounded up and kept somewhere together because it's not my children's fault, and they shouldn't have to learn to work with all people in the community! Segregation! That's what we need!'
Or...
'You know who pisses me off? Old people. They're always walking so slowly along the road when I want to get and do my shopping! Why should I be inconvenienced for them? And they're always gossiping with each other! How dare they get in my way? They should have time restrictions where if you can't walk comfortably at 5mph then you shouldn't be allowed on the pavement. They should stay in their houses and get stuff delivered.'
Or...
'I was stuck behind a bloody blind man at the cash point. I think he must have been simple, because each time the machine beeped at him, he hit the wrong button. He kept muttering that they'd changed the menu, but that's hardly my fault is it? He was taking too long and getting upset about it, like that's my problem. He should stay out of the way and only go into the bank to get his money.'
It is simply not acceptable to wish a huge section of the population away because it inconveniences you!
Like others here, I should not be at work, but I am, because otherwise we will be beyond poverty. Have you seen the horror stories coming out of ATOS? The way people are treated there? And that would be to get a pittance of money that would still be too little to live on with two children. If I resign, I can't claim JSA.
I don't get to leave my mental illness somewhere else for any part of the day to take a break from it. I'm working on getting better (and yes, was told I had to do some physical exercise every day, by a psychiatrist - I don't do the gym because I can't afford it, despite knowing that my mental health benefits most from swimming.) I take a lot of medication. The medication also makes me ill.
On Wednesday night I was curled up on my kitchen hair, pulling my hair out, trying to breathe slow enough to get up and make a cup of tea. It took me 25 minutes. I had another episode yesterday at work. I was pacing the office, unable to stop, not able to keep my hands from waiving, not able to stop talking. Crying and saying 'I'm so sorry! I'm so sorry!' even while it was happening and completely unable to stop. Fortunately it didn't get worse than that, and it ended after 15 minutes.
But I have to work. I used to be healthy, when I took the job and got the mortgage. I have absolutely no choices here. Yes I'm aware that people talk about me. Yes it bloody hurts, but I have no choice at all about any of this.
Mental illness happens indiscriminately. You can't be 'strong enough to take it'. You're not too educated for it. You can't buy your way out of it. You can't see it coming and you can't prevent it.