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TheOrchardKeeper · 16/08/2013 09:53

Am so embarrassed Blush

Have been having a bad week. Pulled my leg last night and had to go to the docs this morning to sort it out and the receptionist was bloody horrible. I was already tearful from the crap week and very sore leg and that just set me off. Had to hide in the fucking toilet like a weepy schoolgirl who can't handle life, where I then proceeded to have a very loud panic attack that I couldn't really make any quieter. So fucking embarrassing.

Has anyone done anything equally cringey? Feel like a bit of a freak Hmm

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Feminine · 16/08/2013 09:55

I doubt anyone really noticed. (hug)

Are you getting help with your anxiety?

ConfuzzledToTheMax · 16/08/2013 09:55

I hope you think seriously about complaining! A medical receptionist causing a patient to have a panic attack is shocking!

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TheOrchardKeeper · 16/08/2013 09:57

I am. But only very recently. Am on BBs and soon to be having CBT.

Everyone noticed, because I can't seem to not cry at the same time out of fear, which is the embarrassing part Hmm Blush

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BuntyPenfold · 16/08/2013 09:57

I have cried in the doctors waiting room if that is any help. (my mum had told me she had cancer, she has pretended to have cancer many many times, this time it was true)

ImperialBlether · 16/08/2013 09:58

I hope the receptionist realised what she'd done.

Have you been in to see the doctor yet?

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TheOrchardKeeper · 16/08/2013 10:00

I forgot to change my address, so yes, that's annoying for them but I'm scatty as hell at the moment so after she had a go at me on the phone about it I did forget to bring in the paper with my address on it (phone bill). I left the fucking thing on the counter before I left. So yes, it looks shit to an outsider but I really meant to bring it with me and just forgot as DS was running around and I barely had anytime to get ready before leaving Blush

She started bloody scolding me in the waiting room in front of loads of people so I took the paper to write my address on and walked off to calm down. Was too late by then though.

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Libertine73 · 16/08/2013 10:01

Bloody hell Bunty Shock

Orchard What is it with Drs receptionists? I've met loads of twatty ones, hope the BBs and CBT work for you Flowers

Punkatheart · 16/08/2013 10:01

Oh you poor love, Bunty. Sorry to hear that you feel so rubbish.

I have heard great things about CBT and I hope that you get the treatment soon. My daughter is currently waiting for her appointment.

Until then - I send my empathetic hugs. You are not a freak and it sounds as if your mum has some issues of her own, which really couldn't have helped. Sorry to hear that she is now genuinely ill. Cancer is a horrible word. I have lymphoma but it doesn't have to be a death sentence.

Take care of yourself.

BuntyPenfold · 16/08/2013 10:03

She sounds horrible Orchardkeeper.
Can you give yourself a little treat, cake and a magazine or something, and let it fade out a bit?

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TheOrchardKeeper · 16/08/2013 10:03

I'm back home now. Just a badly sprained leg.

She faked not noticing but considering everyone else had noticed (I didn't imagine it, as one woman offered me a tissue when I came out and the rest looked uncomfortable!) I'm pretty certain she noticed.

I'd usually be way more assertive btw! Am just so worn down at the moment and didn't want to go anywhere today as I'm knackered and stressed but nevermind.

Just feel so embarrassed really...and it's the first PA I've had in public Sad

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DreamingofSummer · 16/08/2013 10:04

Keeper sorry you are having a bad day - cyber hugs from me

One day I am going to go and find the rudeness college which doctors' and dentists' receptionists have to attend and graduate from. I'll then organise a mass demo(lition) to which you are all hereby invited.

Feminine · 16/08/2013 10:05

Are you very young orchard It would be even worse for the receptionist to have treated you that way.

Almost like she was ticking you off.

It is a disgrace.

I have never had a rude receptionist. I feel quite lucky, it seems it happens a lot.

TheHandbagOfGlory · 16/08/2013 10:05

If I saw or heard somebody being upset like that I would try and help them, or at the very least give them a smile.

Hope you feel better and get your leg sorted. Flowers

BuntyPenfold · 16/08/2013 10:08

Thank you Libertine and Punkatheart
Yes, it is hard to deal with when you don't know which things are true and which are not.

OrchardKeeper, I wish I had been there. I could have offered a non-judgemental hug and a chat. Everyone is entitled to their weak moments you know.

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TheOrchardKeeper · 16/08/2013 10:08

Thanks for the replies. I feel so alone in it at the moment. I'm 23 and look very young. I doubt she'd have been such a b-i-t-ch to an older woman. I'm pretty sure I obviously look like i'll take it atm too unfortunately.

Am ordering pizza when DS has a nap as I can't get out to buy food, though we have enough for DS, who has a few frozen pre-made decent meals thank god (I got a taxi to docs and got one back straight after as I just wanted to be home asap).

And sorry to hear that bunty !

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TheOrchardKeeper · 16/08/2013 10:11

It felt horribly surreal as I was sobbing in the docs room once she saw me and when I walked out and no one said a thing. I was still really frightened when I had the appnt as they called my name whilst I was still in the loo having the bloody PA and could barely talk between breaths when she was looking at the leg Blush

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TheOrchardKeeper · 16/08/2013 10:12

I seriously feel like complaining though. Petty as it sounds. Who acts like that when they're dealing with people in a bad place, physically or mentally? I know I was unorganized but I was sorry and I really thought i'd packed the fucker before I left Hmm

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BuntyPenfold · 16/08/2013 10:13

Brew and Flowers for you Orchard.
I'm sure your day will get better :)

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TheOrchardKeeper · 16/08/2013 10:14

Thank you Smile

DS has jumped on my leg twice now and I doubt it'll be the last time today but nevermind. It's times like this I wish I lived with another adult!

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BuntyPenfold · 16/08/2013 10:15

Didn't the doctor ask you what was wrong??
I should have thought it was obvious that the leg pain was not your only problem.

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TheOrchardKeeper · 16/08/2013 10:16

She said 'oh, yes well I see you were in last week for other problems' and that was it. She then asked me to get on the table thingy and proceeded to do the 'tell me when it hurts' test, which I know is neccasary but it didn't really help me calm down Grin Hmm

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TheHandbagOfGlory · 16/08/2013 10:16

Did the doctor ask why you were crying?

And do complain, it's not petty at all.

TheHandbagOfGlory · 16/08/2013 10:17

Sorry x-post

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TheOrchardKeeper · 16/08/2013 10:19

I said sorry for the state I was in (would've said more but I was still breathing funny and trying to breathe deeply which takes a tonne of concentration at that point) and she just said that about my visit last week (was put on the BBs very recently and only just seen someone for the anxiety).

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Janek · 16/08/2013 10:26

It's not her place to tell you off! Sorry, but it's not. Some doc's receptionists are really horrible, i got told off by one once for not telling them i was a temporary patient. Except i had told them. If they chose not to listen/didn't hear me because the reason i made the appointment was such bad tonsillitis i could barely speak (ie i was ILL and not really up to being bullied...) that's not my fault is it?!?

And you may be right about your age, i was about your age when it happened to me (quite a long time ago...) not very forgiving, am i?

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