to consider going away on my own for a weekend?

[swallowedAfly]

i took ds to egypt for 2 weeks in july so he has had a good holiday this summer already.

i'm a single mum and only work term time (though i start back a bit earlier than him in september).

i am going stark raving mad.

would it be horrible of me to go away for a weekend without ds? he would stay with my parents and i would probably go visit a friend or possibly even just disappear on my own entirely somewhere?

is it bad to spend money and time on myself rather than take him with or just suck up the fact that summer holidays 24/7 parenting is driving me insane?

i don't actually know where i'd go or what i want to do so that's a question too - what would you do if you could manage to carve out a weekend to yourself?

thank you. the stupid thing is i know i will feel 5 million times better once i finally get my period. haven't had panic inducing pmt like this for a long time but i do recognise it.

it's horrible because the things you feel are real and it is about the things that are going on and are 'true' to you BUT it is blown out of all proportion emotionally and feels far more raw than it needs to.

i'm going to feel like such a twat when i get my period and get that release and back to sanity surge.

You're very welcome. Believe me, I know exactly the type of feelings you are talking about. When the old cotton pony finally gets ridden (excuse my crudeness...just trying to lighten the mood ha ha) I'm like "AHA!! That's why I've been feeling like a cranky old moose who hates everyone and feels totally hard done by and abandoned by all the rubbish bastards who are supposed to be my family/friends for the last 5 days". Just hold that thought, you'll be fine toots.

so long as i don't internally combust before i get there

...I did that once...took a while to clean up the sofa...:)

have just been downstairs and told ds sorry i've been a bit grumpy, i haven't been feeling very well and i know i've been a bit rubbish. his response: yeah same as, that happens to me sometimes without glancing up from the wii. had to kiss him for being so lovely.

I think it's super healthy to get away once in a while.
Lucky you having parents you can ask, don't look that gift horse in the mouth.
A couple of days just thinking about what you want is great. You'll probably miss your ds anyway

That's the thing, the kids don't really notice. So long as they know they're loved, they're fine. As are you!!

YANBU
I'm a SAHM, but I still send the DDs to holiday club and activity things, because we get on each others nerves if we are together all the time DH is not on leave.

If I was a single parent I would absolutely want a few days of grandparents, staying at their dads, friends or something.

thanks. ds doesn't see his dad so we've never had those breaks and have relied on my parents which sometimes feels uncomfortable and a bit... conditional. for sanity's sake i've had to though or i'd never have had any break at all.

think to be fair we've both been a bit ratty the last few days - he has been more demanding than usual (probably because i grounded him for not checking in so he's been stuck in) and i've been more withdrawn than usual. not a good combo i guess.

god that sounded like a poor me post

i'm genuinely usually fine. just having a too much on too little time. not helped by having let someone in a bit and having a bit of intimacy which i think is now finished but i'm left feeling a bit needy and stupid.

blumming life.

YAY

and then there was blood and relief seared through her veins like rain into a cracked and dried out river bed.

high drama

think i will go back to planning a weekend away now my two day panic attack is over.

i've had no pmt for ages since i started taking a really good agnus castus supplement. the makers withdrew it and i tried another brand and i really don't think they're working as well somehow. can't take the pill due to stroke risk. really hope this doesn't return to being a monthly state of affairs or that i go back to really long cycles where my body can't quite seem to give in and release.

apologies for my high drama yesterday. i am a bit stressed, lots is going on and i do need to address some things but none of it is life threatening