To ask are you superman or am just abnormal?

[MakeItUpAsYouGoAlong]

Do you ever get days when you just don't want to be a mum. You just don't want to play or entertain them? You just want to be left alone? She's not being naughty or anything It's just I get fucking sick of it just being me. I know I chose to have her but sometimes it's so bloody hard.
I just need a rant and too see if I'm alone in my thinking.

Thank you for your posts, im thinking of trying to do one thing with her everyday. Well one fun thing, rather than our usual day walk and toys.
Today we are going to feed the ducks She should like that.

Well I was going to go duck feeding but am rained off :) (tired and feeling snug)

So pleased you're feeling better. Hope you have a lovely time feeding the ducks. And I'd like to reiterate that you ARE a super mum. One fun thing everyday is something I might aspire to based on your achievements. X

OP I think you are going to get days where you feel it never ends and sometimes you think GOD SAKE FEEDING the ducks again then days where you enjoy it , tbh you sound perfectly normal most mums feel or have felt like you at some point, I say that with hindsight cos mine are grown up but take each day as it comes, and if you need to moan and vent thats ok

I know how you feel! (And your list of things you've done has put me to shame!) DS is 9 months and a lot easier now he can sit up independently and play on his own for a bit, but I still feel like selling him to the pie man some days! This might sound daft but if I'm having a crap day I imagine I'm at work ( used to work in a nursery!) So we do playtime, music time, messy time etc. Breaks up the day a bit!
Oh and I have a supportive Dh and mil close by. You should feel massively proud and I'm in awe of anyone who does this alone!

I was bored out of my mind when my kids were very young. It was so very hard. It gets SO MUCH EASIER.

It's just when I get in bed at night mostly, I realise the day is done, I've scraped through another day, a day i should have enjoyed every minute off with a baby I fought so hard to bring into this world knowing it was likely of be alone.
It's then I realise I'm not as tough as I make out, that there's not one person in my phone book to call for a chat. There's my mum, dad, sister and dog.
For everything else there's mumsnet.
For loneliness there's nothing, just time, time to make new friends.

I was in your boat too MakeItUp-same except I was a few years older than you.
It is FUCKING HARD having a baby on your own. Can I say that again.
FUCKING HARD.
Got that? You need to stop beating yourself up.
None of my friends had had babies yet and they really didn't get it at all..
I did have PND, but went unmedicated because I thought I was just a rubbish mum, whereas in hindsight I was doing fine.
I kept ds warm and fed and cuddled him and walked up and down with him for hours when he was colicky-all by my self.

I also moved near my folks when he was a bit older than your dd, and had no mates.
No-one to have a coffee with, or go to the park with etc, which was worse in a way-I had my mum, but was really isolated.
I also found playgroup awful the first one I went to. All the other mums wore Gap jeans and had expensively blonde hair. I wore a leopard print mini skirt and a Metallica T Shirt...
They were real stepford wives who totally ignored me.

I was very lonely, but I went to college too, and then I found a fab playgroup, where I made friends! And It was much, much better.

No woman is an island. You need other people, you need fun, you need the occasional night out.

Persevere with trying to socialise at mum stuff. Not all playgroups are alike, and not everyone will judge you;
One of my friends I have made recently is a 25 year old mum of two-ostensibly we have nothing in common, but actually we get on great.
PM me anytime, if you need to offload, because I truly do understand.x

Hang on in there, it will get better.

I have been where you are (twice) and it is very hard.

Look after yourself and please dont feel guilty, YOU are the best Mum for YOUR baby

Let me know when you want to meet up & we'll sort it. I have nothing but sympathy for single parents, it's hard enough with DH's help. And no matter how gorgeous your kids are there are times when you just wish them miles away (at least I hope that's not just me!)

I have to admit that dd bored me something rotten a lot of the time at that age, she just slept, ate, pooed 70% of the day.

The fun 30% was good but the other 70% I wanted to watch TV and chill.