This is my first post and as such I will give a bit of back ground info. I am a first time mum to a 6mth old and have a history of bouts of depression, anxiety and panic attacks.
Throughout my pregnancy I went through CBT in order to be confident enough to attempT a natural drug free birth, for which I am extremely grateful. I had lost a pregnancy before this one.
I am returning to work soon and would like a local childminder to watch DD as then I feel I will have more 'say' in how she is cared for. However, both sets of grandparents are desperate to 'have' her and my DH thinks I'm being a) ungrateful of their help and b) silly to waste the money on a CM when she is better with people she knows...
My mother is really controlling and passive aggressive at times. DH's parents, whom I care about greatly, are much less mobile and a lot older which causes me to worry.
The stupid thing is that I'm not actually returning to work for another 4 months and this is already causing me to lose sleep and rows with DH.
For the record, I LOVE being a mum and it is everything I had hoped for and much more.
I would really appreciate some direct replies... Do I go with grandparents and relinquish the 'control' I feel I need, or do I got with a CM?
(and do you think this is just my anxiety rearing it's ugly head again?)