To think I am a bloody doctor, I shouldn't be working for a pittance after childcare?

[knackeredmother]

I am having a pissed off day so am probably BU.
I work 24 hours (plus much more unpaid overtime) a week as a GP registrar, this includes nights, weekends and long days until 10pm.
My take home pay is £1200 (after 5 years qualification).
I have 2 dc under 5 and employ a nanny as my son has lots of hospital admissions with an ongoing chest problem and my shifts mean nursery/childminder would be impossible. I also have no family to help out before I get flamed for having a nanny. There really is no other option for us that I can work out and nursery for 2 would not be much less money.
I pay our nanny about £800 a month gross for 17 hours per week (£10 p.h going rate). That leaves me £400 income to pay all of my outgoings.
My nanny has no childcare to pay for as she uses the 15 hours free government funding and has family help. Its not her fault but she has almost double the disposable income I have for working less and more sociable hours.
I'm using up annual leave today as poor ds is too sick to leave even with our nanny.
It's just made me think what is the point of going to work? I could stay at home, have no sick child stress and although I would be £400 a month down I wouldn't need to run a car, fork out bloody thousands pounds for professional exams and membership fees
I'm being unreasonable aren't I - somebody tell me it will all be worth it in the end!

Just a thought- when I went back to work in 1999, I nearly quit after 3 months- NHS management job, running round the country, juggling kids and home, new management at work and a fairly crap time...

I shared my misery with the CEO, and thought their reply was really useful, to me anyway- he said, yes it is like that now, but it wont always be, you are keeping your hand in, staying current, and adding to your skills.... as work and home life changes, then you cash in. That is partly what you are working for now, to protect your future.

Not sure if that helps. I do feel for you, though.

It's so lovely to see people are taking the time to share their experiences and it does seem as if I need to view the struggle now to protect my future.
However, hearing the reality of what some GP partners n here are taking home does make me wonder!
As to the poster who says doctors are on a pedestal in society- I am sure all the doctors on here will be wondering along with me which society that is then? Although I suppose I have the privilege of being able to sign the passports of neighbours and acquaintances I barely know?!
Although I sound quite bitter- I do honesty love my job!

Sorry for poor grammar- on my phone whilst cooking tea!

Its a bloody hard job, with a great deal of responsibility. And hospital doctors have to go through that awful pecking order line to make when young, taking on extra hours/burdens. And at the same time as having kids young and costly.

And with managers stressed themselves, and behaving like headless chickens half the time.

And it is probably the hardest year ever in the NHS, with the scale of the cuts, which affects morale for you and all of your colleagues.

Are there no regional/local support networks for staff in your position? Managers can be good at creating them for themselves.