Because after a year in which I was v ill due to pg and he coped with the panic of impending fatherhood by having an affair, and after other issues the year before, he was Mr Partyman earlier and is now snoring.
My friend was here and was going home to see midnight in with her OH who was at home (still) nursing a hangover from last night, and my parents were here and said in advance that they would be leaving about tennish as Dad isnt very well. So, it was known in advance that we would see the NY in just the two of us. He was Mein Host, laughing, joking, centre of attention (which he loves being) and within ten minutes of my friend leaving, he was snoring like a pig because he was pissed as a fart.
I look at him and think "this was supposed to be a sign of our new start, moving on into a new era of our marriage. What it is is you being a selfish drunken twat who doesnt care enough about me or about what you did to even stay sober enough to see the NY in with me"
I have been thinking more and more recently about this, and tonight I am really at the point where I think that perhaps I should just say "bollocks" and get a divorce. It wont be easy but atleast I wont have the piss taken out of me will I? :(
Happy New Year. Same as the last....................but atleast this year i know what situation I am in, last year I was a blissfully ignorant, although v unhappy, idiot :(
I have just texted him a video of him snoring like a pig with the NY live thing on the TV in the backgroud with the words, HAPPY NEW YEAR. Hopefully it will wake him up about 5am when it finally gets to him!