to think the worst?

[holstenlips]

Had op lump removed ten days ago. Called today to go to hosp next week. Wouldn't tell me why. It can only be one thing right?

Loving new home, both kids happy with new bedrooms, I feel very contented here.

I like unpacking too and buying new stuff online!

That's great. :) Kids can be very tricky with new bedrooms god forbid one person has an extra inch of space/built in wardrobe. Although you said DD is 4 my DS is also 4 and couldn't care less. :o

Can I have a minor rant about XP while I'm here? So Friday I was told I have cancer. As I don't have family nearby, and XP was in my house Looking after our DD, when I got back from hosp with the news, i asked him to stay over (sofa) as I wasn't sure how I would feel. It was fine, we watched BB and had a laugh. But then he tried it on, and I had to keep telling him to stop touching me, hugging me. It just annoys me that he has no self control. It was a big day for me (cancer diagnosis) and he was just thinking with his d*ck. Annoys me so much, I need him to be a capable grown up for DD. Sorry for rant, I don't have anyone to talk to.

Bloody men! Sounds like he is XP for a reason! That would really piss me off too, hope he got the message OP. How are you feeling today? Do you need to start any treatments soon?

Good morning! Yes, XP for lots of reasons. Actually now I have cancer perhaps I can stop soft soaping him and tell him to man up and also to stop being a sex pest! I'm ok, tired. I'm still getting over surgery so I have 2 weeks before I start treatment

Hi I just wanted to write as I'd read the post. You're amazing. You are so strong and positive and I'm sure you will continue to be so through your treatment.

Having said that, everyone has a little crumble sometimes and if you want to, so be it! Good luck with it all.

Thank you, I haven't felt upset or negative yet I'm sure that will happen

Hi, just saw this - what an awful wait! I was diagnosed with cancer last year and found the hardest bit to be waiting for appointments.

It took a while for the news to sink in but when it did I was an absolute wreck. I'm not advising you to try to be miserable but if you do hit a low, don't feel like you have to act positive for everyone else's benefit. Best of luck xx

I'm sorry to hear that AKMD, tbh, I am starting to feel really exhausted, so maybeits coming. Once the kids r at school maybe. Thanks for wishes all.

I really hope u are ok now AK

Thanks, I'm fine. I started out with a 3% chance of making it to this year and only found out after surgery that the tumour was benign. What a relief, but so scary while it lasted.

If you really want to make your friends feel better, take them up on offers of helping with childcare, cleaning, a shoulder to cry on as needed. The friends I was honest with about how I felt were absolute rocks and felt glad that I was able to come to them.

Glad to hear it, and good advice, thank you x

Could be but speaking from experience we were not allowed to release results over the phone, only from the consultant or direct to the doctor. It was part of the QA system to ensure patient confidentiality. Why worry over what may not be? Over analysing what could be won't help anyhow until you know what definitely is, though you can't force yourself not to worry that too'll stress you out, so why not wait until you know and then you'll be certain and informed

Mia OP has already been given the news later in the thread. Really sorry to hear your news holsten hope you will feel you can come on here for a rant and for support in the coming months. Xx

Hope everything goes well today. :)

Thanks, schools have been great. Just still have to get up the courage to tell my parents

Do everything in your own time. I'm sure they will understand if you don't tell them right away but they could be a huge help if you are close to them.

Hmm they will b dramatic (which I don't want) and if they stay with me I will end up looking after them. I am going to have to tell them now tho as I have told my sisters and brother. Perhaps they will surprise me tho, and I will feel less guilty that I'm not hiding it.

I hope they do surprise you. If not just explain that you don't need any dramatics at the moment, Just support.

Well it went ok, they r holding off til after my treatment. Been so hard telling people and my emotions all over the place. I had a panic attack today when a friend asked me loads of questions. I threw her out my house. Feel terrible about it now.