Nicks,
yes in some respects you are right.
In the past I have been bull headed and for a while buried my head in the sand with regards to DS1. Parenting comes with no manuals and I turned to MN more and more looking for the answers Dr's weren't giving me. DS1 finally got a dx of aspergers earlier this year, I have a lot to learn but will get there.
Then with regard to my DP we had a major row, were splitting up and I fell in love with the attention I was getting from someone else. DP realised something was up and after hours of talking and sessions at relate we are working things out.
DS2 now he is a different thing all together. I am sure there will be the day I want to pull my hair out and scream but atm age 3yrs 11m he is still a dream to have. And yes I feel and probably sound horrible saying that when DS1 has normally been the reason I have ranted on here. But DS2 is an easy child - the only thing I am worried about is I panic that I have failed him as by this age DS1 was reading and writing, DS2 is still scribbling and memorising books read to him before retelling them. See I have a second son and a new set of worries.
Sometimes the ladies on here are right in what they say about me burying my head in the sand BUT one thing they are always wrong about is me wanting attention when I rant on here. I use MN as a sounding board, a place to get things off my chest it kind of helps to have an outlet.