Crisis point for me right now, so even though I know its harsh on AIBU, I need advice.
Things have come to a complete head with DH. I just snapped when I was making his breakfast. I said "youre always here, everywhere I turn youre just there. I need to breathe". He was stunned, he got up to leave and I threw his breakfast in the bin. He walked out of the house, then he came back fuming, shouting, saying he'd never let me bully him out of his home. He told me to pack my bags and leave, taking DD. Go to my mums.
But I told him to leave. He laughed in my face, and said I was so stupid. He says the house is in HIS name, and HE decides who will live in it.
He banged my laptop really hard when I was upstairs; this is the first time he's been voilent. It hasnt broken but the top cover bit came loose from the actual laptop. Ive snapped it back into place but am absolutely fuming; he knows how much I had to save up for this. When I came down he was shouting and swearing very very loud, and DD said "dont shout at my mummy". I just there colouring a picture on DD's easel.
Im shaking as I write this. Hes gone to his mums with DD, on crutches - he broke his leg afew weeks ago. I dont even know how hes going to hold her hand across the roads.
He said things to me that I dont think i'll ever forget. How I have had an awful upbringing, and how my parents never taught me anything. My father passed away in may, and his comments have cut me raw.
Im starting a university course in afew weeks - I got a place although it was very competitive to get in. DD's nursery application has been accepted - she starts soon too. And my mum lives in another city.
I know all this is jumbled and incoherent - but I cant think straight.
What are my options right now - I need some sensible advice. Please me gente.