I'm struggling today, my DP is out to work, which is a good thing, so im trying to hold it all together at home, scared of the phone and the postman. I think most of our creditors have now stopped all interest, its just the unmanagable amounts that get to us. the HMRC take £300 a month and tell us we have to be up to date for our tax by january, we had to pay them £2400 just after xmas and thought they might give us a bit of time, but two weeks after filing the tax return (a week late) we were sent a distraint order. Which is mental because they left it for over a year before contacting us last time. What i don't understand is we have a tax bill for double what DP earnt becuase they want us paying tax in advance, so what i worked out to be a £800 tax bill, suddenly shot up to the best part of £4000 for no reason that i see as fair.
I just live in constant fear of losing our home, to the extent i cant even keep it clean (well it is clean, but its extremely messy and that just makes me feel worse) becuase i think that will "jinx" things and we'll lose it anyway.
I dont know how these debt collector people sleep at night, they have been vile to me on the phone, one calling me stupid because we didnt keep records - it was a debt company that refused to disclose what credit card company they were working for - turned out it was MINT and we owed them £300, but i was made to feel like shit for getting into debt. I didnt ask for any of this, we don't have huge TVs, flash cars (in fact my DP had to fix his own van because we coldt afford to get it fixed and had to use family car for work which is now ruined due to tools in it - thankfully van now fixed but its cost us double in petrol for past few months and that often has meant paying out £100 a week) or anything like that. I hae just sat and trawled through job websites, nothing.
I honestly sometimes think it would be easier to walk in front of a train, but i can't bear to think of my DD at my graveside :(