AIBU I know but have to do this for cathartic reasons. We have a gorgeous dd 4, however we have been TTC for 3 years and have had 2 MC, one 2 months ago. Everywhere I go women are pg with their 2nd, 3rd or 4th baby everyone accept me. Dont get me wrong, I am so thankful for our lovely dd it would be alot worse if we did not have her, she has helped me through this, I would love to provide her with a brother or sister especially, she has suspected ASD (awaiting prober dx), it would help to have something for her to focus on and to be involved in. I just feel like rubbish, my body crap for not doing what its supposed to be doing. My good friend announced today that she is expecting dc number 3 grrrr, I feel happy for her and of course its not her fault but it is like a punch in the gut.