to want cosmetic surgery on my genitals?

[NooniEnvy]

I have name-changed for this.

Since I was a child I have been very embarrassed by my genitals. My inner labia hang down quite a lot, and the area where my clitoris is kind of sticks out rather than being hidden by the top of the outer labia. It has always bothered me, especially when I was about 22 and a guy I was seeing said "you're not like other girls down there".

I have been looking into cosmetic surgery options and I think that I could have two procedures that will make my genitals far more attractive looking. I would like my inner labia reduced and my outer labia and mon pubis (never knew it was called that!) augmented so that it is a bit plumper and not look so odd. Hopefully that will also encase my clitoris so that it doesn't stick out.

The thing is, everyone I have mentioned it to is absolutely horrified. They all think I'm insane. But it really bothers me. I can't pinpoint exactly when I knew I was a bit 'different' and I never saw any porn when I was growing up, so I didn't have anything to compare myself to, other than other girls at school, I suppose. I really want everyone to be happy for me, but they're just not. It is an expensive operation (about 12k) and I'd have to go abroad. I know that if I do this I would never, ever be able to moan about having no money as everyone would say, "well, you had that operation...". Also, I worry that people who I have told will lose respect for me. I wish I hadn't told anybody, but I have.

I so wish it didn't bother me and I could just grow up and accept it, but I feel so ugly. It really affects my relationships as I cannot enjoy sex as I am preoccupied with this.

Any thoughts? Does anybody else out there feel like me? Thank you.

Are yours that bad MommyMayhem?

I have no labia on one side and one long side. My clit sticks out to as I have no labia really on one side except for a scar. (Was from childbirth as my labia ripped off completely and they forgot to sew it as they were busy.

I was in a lot of pain but didnt notice for a week by that time I went to a and e and they said it was too late as it was scar tissue. I went back after 4 months and they took it all off under a general.

It doesnt bother me in the slightest. I am only 26 but couldnt care less what my labia looks like tbh. My husband isnt bothered (it definitely hasnt put him off!) and I doubt any decent man would be.

I wouldnt get the surgery as for a start it would be expensive for you 12k!! think of the things you could spend that money on like towards a house, holidays, a wedding if you ever get married etc.

I will add now having read this whole thread I agree about not spending this amount of money if you have not had kids yet. As I didnt know that would happen to me and although it doesnt bother me, it definitely would bother me if I had previously spent 12k shaping down there!