for hating New Years Eve

[lovemy2babies]

I have been hysterically upset today and couldn't work out why, thought I was just very tired due to looking after a toddler and baby who still bf's in the night.
Have just realised that 20 years ago today my brother died. We were both children.
Do you think that its supressed conscience (sp) crawling up at me?
God today has been awful.

xx

there is nothing like having kids to bring back all sort of things from childhood
take good care of yourself, soon there will be lovely memories to balance out the sad
X

Thanks.
Thought I was over alot of stuff, but the holidays screw me up so much no matter how much of a brave face I try and put on.