marmite - euuurrrrggghhh!!!!
I know I've been doing plenty wrong to have a BMI of 38, a lifetime of loosing loads (I've been a small size 8 a few times) then gaining it all back and then some is what's got me here. I've been on a binge/starve/binge/starve cycle since I was 10.
If there's anyone out there with a chubby 10 year old, don't put her on a strict diet for goodness sake!!!!! my mother meant well, but that's what strted me off on the journey to here.
I went completely mad when pg with DD, eating rounds and rounds of eggy bread and jacket potatoes for a snack, I put on a vast amount, and I wish someone had pulled me up on it then, but because my BMI was under 35 it was considered ok.
I tried to loose weight before getting pg, but I've been in a binge phase the past year (having actually previously lost most of my pg weight) and loosing when my head's in that place is like fighting against the tide, DH was getting frustrated with me putting off ttc and DD kept getting older, I thought it might take a while to get pg given that we don't DTD anything like as much as we did before DD, but 2 weeks later I got a BFP...
I've always maintained that, for me, so long as I'm not in the midst of a binging phase, loosing weight is simple, it's staying that way that's hard, and so trying to maintain my weight at the moment is the biggest challenge for me.
I'm not only pg, I also still bf DD twice a day, and given that I am fit and active and having read a bit about the potential effects of ketones on an unborn baby I actually actively don't want to loose weight at the moment.
thankyou for the advice everyone, I was genuinely worried that my years of messed up eating had totally skewed what I thought was reasonable to have for breakfast.