'Yes, you do! They are all negatives, the more honest state that they would only earn another £20 per week if they worked so why should they.
I really do not
My family are sixty miles away and already provide childcare to my other sisters
DH's aprents broke up 5 years ago, FIL has had to start from scratch with a new fiancee so hiuge mortgage and long hours at work; MIL hasn;t spoken to us since (well on one occasion and that was nasty- sadly for her disability = family embarassment)
Childcare. yes. now, I have it sorted for the youngest straight off. He already goes to a Cm twice a week for a few hours(so I can do terrible things like bath / sleep). DS3 could attend but not anyone with a school drop off / pick up, or more than 6 charges (so no nursery)- this is due to the fact he is asd (hence 6 kids) and the pure bad luck that SNU kick out + LEA drop off = exactly teh lcoal school kick out when all teh cm's are out. bad luck, really.
Ds2- wouldn't be an issue ATM; would be easy to palce.
ds1- ah yes, see if you were told that the kid in your child's class who ebats them up most days and has to have an adult funded 24/7 to be with them (either me or a TA) was going to be in the nursery or cm setting how would you react? becuase if it were my boys at risk I wouldn't be happy. And from my perspectibve if I nkow placing ds1 with other kdis palces the others at risk how can I? Seriosuly? Is it OK to sacrrifice other kid's safety for myself?
Social services refuse us help though the Psych is considering launching an attack on them after I broke down there today
The other issue of course is that on very little sleep, and needing appts every week- would you employ me?
Now uyes that's just me but I ehar the same tale every day from other parents of SN kids. OK, I have two and that complicates things but sadly two isn;t rare either: genetics being crap and all.
If I earned less but was working I would do it. Why do I spend so much time on these threads? becuase I am bored rigid. Absolutely. Someone said earliuer I went to an ex POly- not quite but almost. Why? Because of the standard of lcoal living I can offer the boys: in fact I was offerd Theology by an RE Uni and actively opursued to apply for a aplce on social policy degree. had I not ahd the boys to think of I'd have loved it.
I mean, really, really loved it. Life changing for the girl from the sink estate style loved it.
So I am not looking for excuses but as the Psych tells me the thing that makes my life worth something rather than a chore: I might be a good mum in her opinion but i'm a bored and isolated one too.
and that's what benefits do to you. And having disabled kids. They eat up your choices. And I am only a year into this: imagine in tenn, fifteen years if nothing has changed? How badly would your self esteem, confidence and general ability to actually do anything be affected?
There are indeed scrotes who don't care. They are as far from me in terms of psychological rationale as anyone, and the same goes for most of the claimants out there. Think of all working gives a person: apart from my Mum (when she remembers, clearly undiagnosed AS imo) and my nuclear family, maybe a few therapists, I won;t speak to anyone for teh entire holidays. Fun huh? Would you sacrifice your mates for that supposed £10 Rrocky mentioned? nah. but when you can't go out for ten eyars, maytes rarely hang around for ever and the few that do still naturally acquire other lives that you're not part of. I mean, I couldn't even go support one of my oldest friends as her 'D' H was sent down for sex trafficking: frankly, unintentionally I am a shit friend to maintain.
Getting up in the morning, a sense of self esteem, feedback, motivation, ambition- not there outside the kids for me. Andfor lots of people out of work.
Often on these threads people say 'Of course I would give carers more'. Carers don't need more cash (not those with a partner and not on JSA / IB anyway). No what we need is a ladder to climb out, some way of getting back on board.
Every time I meet people they see something in me: setting up ASD services, or fighting a local seat for tehir party. DH thinks I should be PrimeMinister for laughing out loud. but what I see when I look in the mirror (metahorically, I don't even have a bloody mirrorr, ds1 broke it) is a fat frump who looks afeels old and has trhe opinions but not the confidence to do anything with them anymore.
Is paying taxes unplasant? possibly. but a damned site less painful than what the alternative can be. I was the one people paid to get these famillies out of the situation; DH describes me a sexier (doubtful) and more left wing Anne Widdicombe: he's porbably right. bArring the catholicism, anyway. And so I susepct if I cannot find a solution then actually, there isn;t one. Not now anyway. Perhaps in a year, in two years. In the meantime we have a time of political flux where I daren't watch the news any more becuase the next annoucement could be the one that finally loses the house. And if I go on fora like this there's always someone who thinks I probably just didn;t try enough and probably feed my kids shit and drink vodka all day. Not specifically this thread, there are many of tehm, all the time.
So instead of blaiming people (are people looking for reasons why it couldn't happen to them wrt to both disability and poverty I wonder? i'd understand that I think) we need to be building those ladders I emntioned earlier. And you know, maybe evena ccepting that there are less jobs ATM than people looking. Not no jobs, but cewrtainly not enough.