40+1 with DC5 (DC2 stillborn). Trying for a VBAC, been told baby is on the large size, in an excellent position, am 3cm dilated (for the last week!) and partly effaced. Have had 3 sweeps now!
Midwife reckons all I will need is my water's breaking (they can't do much more to induce me anyway as VBAC). She was happy for me to go in immediately but hospital will not do anything until I have seen consultant next week. When I last saw consultant 2 weeks ago, he said that he was confident that the 1st sweep he had done would mean start me off so would not be seeing me again .
Now I am not just being impatient, I had a stillbirth at 31 weeks in 2001 where the problem was not picked up until 30 weeks (even though I had all the normal scans and even an amnio due to the baby having club foot which was clear) and I will not believe this baby is OK until it's born. It was a dreadful experience as I had to carry her for a week knowing that she would die as soon as the cord was cut so by giving birth to her, I would be killing her .
I have had twins since then but that pregnancy was carefully managed (different hospital) and I had an ELCS at 37 weeks. With this pregnancy they will not do an ELCS until 41 weeks which is why I hoped to VBAC before then!
Now I am older, I worry there is more opportunity for things to go wrong and am extremely stressed about it and cannot cope with anything including my other 3 DCs! Another week seems like a lifetime especially as they are off school now and DH will be at work up until the birth.
I was intending to call the labour ward today to ask if they can monitor me as I am bit concerned about the baby's movements anyway and when I get there, ask if they can do anything for me (cry and make a fuss as well) and hope they take pity. AIBU?