This could be a long one so apologies. I'm genuinely really struggling knowing what to do. I have so much on my plate, I feel completely exhausted and burnt out and keep going through all options in my head and not really coming to a conclusion.
Firstly, my circumstances are I am a self employed cleaner with my own business - don't hire staff but make enough to keep us comfortable. My husband is disabled, which is progressing so also carer for him. He is very good and helps as much as he can but is finding it more difficult so I'm picking up more at home (I have absolutely no problem with this, I know he's also struggling mentally with this as he wants to help more) have 1 high needs SEN daughter with PTSD from school experiences that I am also carer for (she defaults to me as her safe person, again her dad steps in as and when but she struggles to let anyone else close) have a younger daughter, also suspected SEN (on pathways for assessments) at home so the care for her currently falls to dad. One older son that has moved out but again, SEN so has regular check ins to make sure he's eating, drinking, showering etc with the occasional meal dropping off to him (again, his dad picks up the slack for this a lot of the time but is finding it increasingly difficult) on top of this I also have a heart condition that needs yearly monitoring.
I am absolutely exhausted and realise something needs to give. I currently only work 3 days a week and have 5 clients, but on top of everything else I think it's pushing me over the edge. I don't want to give up work, I've been working since I was 14 with a small gap to raise the kids and only took the minimum maternity. I also feel a sense of duty to my clients, I've been with them a long time and hate to let anyone down. I've looked at dropping one or two but worry about the money side of it. At the moment what I earn goes towards Birthdays, Christmas and treats. It worries me with the loss of income. Every time I almost come to a solution I get a "oh but" moment and talk myself back out of it. Realistically I know something needs to give... Does anyone have any advice. I honestly can't think and my head is spinning