I will begin by saying that I recognise that some people may have been greatly supported by their local mental health team and that I am not ranting about all mental health professionals, however, I need to vent about what has happened to me.
I'm wondering if anyone else has had a similar experience or what advice you would give (not looking for a diagnosis etc).
I don't want to give too much information in case of being outing. After completing a detailed initial assessment with a private clinician it looks like I have strong autistic traits (I have not pursued this so not officially diagnosed).
I requested a nhs adhd assesment which was declined as not enough evidence in childhood. I have no-one who can collaborate my childhood experiences. I believe I have ADHD traits even if not enough to be officially diagnosed and often autism and adhd will overlap.
Neurodiversity suspected
I am menopausal.
I have CPTSD (officially confirmed) from childhood.
Anxiety
Some kind of dwelling on Existentialism and the meaning of life and being purposeful (which I feel I am not). Stuck in a loop - maybe not OCD but bordering on this. I am struggling to take action to help myself.
Very dark thoughts. Not suicidal but suicide ideation which I discussed.
Likely have depression connected to all the above.
I was referred to the local mental health team by GP and spoke to a mental health nurse recently.
Outcome confirmed in a letter:
Complete an online nhs autism assessment (I said I might have difficulties with this and preferred an in person assessment).
Join a local mental health support group (I attended this previously - only two people attended and it is not run by a professional or anyone with lived experience).
Ring the samaritans - number given if I feel overwhelmed.
Take antidepressants - I have tried numerous ones over the course of time.
I am likely lacking dopamine. No antidepressant to cover this - there is one but not prescribed in the UK.
I am bewildered by the lack of care and support. Unsure of how to move forward.
Anyone?